I am back

Omg, it has been ages I haven't update anything on my blog. I kinda miss it eventho I know no one reads it. Haha but I just wanna blogging again

So yeah, here I am. I am 22 y/o now. How fast time flies aite?
Alhamdulillah praised to Allah, I managed to enter pharmacy school and got a scholar :)
Next semester which will start next week will be my second last sem. Pejam celik I almost survive. Please gaisss play for atiqah will grad on timee,pass with flying colours be a good pharmacist. Yep.
I am considering myself to continue my studies to the next level which is master. It is one of my dreams. But thinking about my achievement in this cos is not so good, I dont think I am able to get an offer.. and mom told me to focus on what I do now and think about it later. If Allah permits, I'll have rezq to continue :)
To do master or phd is not easy. Its a lonely journey according to mysister, she's currently doing her phd so she advice me. So I dont think I am ready for it.
Anddd also talking about fourth year, I am freaking out! It'll be hectic as hell, not to forget fyp,non stop quizes and presentations and exam ! Fuhhh. It has not happened yet but I am afraid with everything, like the possibility of not being able to cope with it, the words what if, what if blaa blaa keep spinning on my head. That's the reason why I restart blogging cos I need motivation and my sister is sleeping cos its 5 am, and I need a wisdom words. I wonder why fear exist and why Allah created it.. Then I remember a verse from alquran which stated that Allah will test us with fear and hunger. And in the last ayat, He had mentioned He test it to see whether we have patience or not.. fear is bad but is good at the same time. We need it somehow.
Thanks to this blog cos it has so many reminders and after reading it I realised that I am not the same atiqah as before. I'm far away from the truth, careless and rarely think about akhirat. If you drown in the ocean of dunia, you will be worry because it will disappoint you and it's not eternal.

Its time to repair and reconstruct the heart back.